Sunday, February 27, 2005, 6:41 PM
So many nice memories but that's all i'm left with.Oh.How you can sweep me off my feet and just drop me with a thump.I don't want you back.I just wanna be friends with you.I said i wanted to meet you and you acted all funny.We started fast,ended fast.I tried too hard to be friends with you.I guess i wanted us back as friends fast.I'm always so impatient.Impatience is my downfall.Everyone says it takes TIME for things to be back to normal,to be just friends with you.its been barely 8 days.I seemed to be so sticky and its as if i still want you back.But no.I'm getting over you.There was a period of time I got so troubled,so low spirited,i turn to things i usually don't see eye to eye with.I kept drinking so much,hoping to drown my sorrows.Hoping i can forget how depressed i feel.Yet,i know i didn't want to end up drunk.Cos i can't bear the thought of letting another guy touch me.I don't wanna get myself hurt again the way you did to me.Uh uh.I broke your promise..I don't see a point in keeping it when I ain't in your life no more.I don't mean anything to you. I was on the verge of trying to screw up my life.I had wanted to make u see how much u make me change.Hoping you will feel bad and see how much you've hurt me.Luckily,i still had my dignity and pride..and of course,the brains.I won't be stupid to slash my wrists and be reminded for the rest of my life the pain you have inflicted in my flesh and in my heart.I won't throw myself at every other guy just because you don't want me.I ain't no whore.You taught me faithfulness.Something that was supposed to be in every relationship.But I couldn't master till i met you.Though you're not the guy for me.Perhaps.I should say thanks for everything.You've been a stepping stone.I got my freedom..
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